There was so much. [She takes a deep breath.] There was a part where he said when he woke up on the Marsiva he was worried about me and he thought he lost me. And then he realized I was here and I remembered him and he had me back. But then he didn't...
That's how it felt to lose Reid. [Relating it back to one of the hardest times in her life made this so much harder. She's sure that wasn't Chekov's intention, but of course she sees a connection.] When he was gone for a week and I didn't know if I'd ever see him again and then he came back and remembered me, but he remembered her too and it was never the same.
It was never his fault, [though he didn't always make it easier either.] but it broke my heart and now I'm breaking his and I can't fix it.
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Date: 2017-03-24 02:39 pm (UTC)That's how it felt to lose Reid. [Relating it back to one of the hardest times in her life made this so much harder. She's sure that wasn't Chekov's intention, but of course she sees a connection.] When he was gone for a week and I didn't know if I'd ever see him again and then he came back and remembered me, but he remembered her too and it was never the same.
It was never his fault, [though he didn't always make it easier either.] but it broke my heart and now I'm breaking his and I can't fix it.