[ it's like his mind has gone blank with the relief. his whole life, he's been terrified to let himself feel and now - that fear isn't gone, because that's not how life works, but it's lifted, just a little.
maybe he can do it without turning into a monster after all.
love and gratitude come at him in tidal waves, washing out the ugliness that's been trapping him in his own head. not bottling things up feels amazing. he should have told kitty a long time ago because she deserves to know - but he should also have told her a long time ago because it would have set him free. how did he not think to ask himself that? for such a smart guy, he can be a total moron sometimes. and even for a total moron - he can be a totaler moron. ]
I never want to be. I told Kara -- never to let me hurt anyone. [ he's terrified of being hurt, but if the choice is becoming his father or die? give him sanity or give him death. though, he doubts kara would ever give him death. it would most likely be give him prison and extensive therapy. ]
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maybe he can do it without turning into a monster after all.
love and gratitude come at him in tidal waves, washing out the ugliness that's been trapping him in his own head. not bottling things up feels amazing. he should have told kitty a long time ago because she deserves to know - but he should also have told her a long time ago because it would have set him free. how did he not think to ask himself that? for such a smart guy, he can be a total moron sometimes. and even for a total moron - he can be a totaler moron. ]
I never want to be. I told Kara -- never to let me hurt anyone. [ he's terrified of being hurt, but if the choice is becoming his father or die? give him sanity or give him death. though, he doubts kara would ever give him death. it would most likely be give him prison and extensive therapy. ]