[ he sniffles, not sure he can hold out much longer. he doesn't deserve her, he doesn't deserve this understanding, but he's not going to fight it either. which, may just be further proof to how much he doesn't deserve her. ]
Not everyone has his genes. [ he looks about as vulnerable as he must have all those years ago - when he was 11 years old and dad was dragged off by the fbi. still murdering. ] I hate this part of me. [ hate doesn't feel like a strong enough word ] I don't want it to exist and sometimes [ always. ] it's easier to pretend it doesn't. I want to be good, helpful, yours -- not his.
[ will he ever stop being haunted? please, he just wants it to stop at some point. he needs to know that this fear isn't going to be the rest of his life, isn't going to accompany every strong emotion he ever feels. ]
I just want to be a better man. [ and fake it until you make it is his method of choice. ]
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Date: 2016-05-02 03:48 pm (UTC)Not everyone has his genes. [ he looks about as vulnerable as he must have all those years ago - when he was 11 years old and dad was dragged off by the fbi. still murdering. ] I hate this part of me. [ hate doesn't feel like a strong enough word ] I don't want it to exist and sometimes [ always. ] it's easier to pretend it doesn't. I want to be good, helpful, yours -- not his.
[ will he ever stop being haunted? please, he just wants it to stop at some point. he needs to know that this fear isn't going to be the rest of his life, isn't going to accompany every strong emotion he ever feels. ]
I just want to be a better man. [ and fake it until you make it is his method of choice. ]