[She sets the slinky down carefully on the floor and just curls up against him on the couch. She doesn't want to leave space. Space will just get filled in with doubts and fears and she doesn't want any of that.]
I don't really know how to start... [Maybe not by blurting out the headline this time though. She curls in just a little bit closer and shuts her eyes.] After I watched my parents get murdered I, um, I always felt like it was just a matter of time for me. I mean, we're all mortal, but I never expected to get old or suffer natural causes. Part of why I picked up smoking I guess. [Not that she's been doing it much at all with the fleet. She's all out of cigarettes and she wasn't sure about the kinds they sell here. And hasn't really been under enough stress to need to find out.]
So, I just...tried to live more? Faster? ...I got married when I was still really young to one of my teammates. [Yep, she just said that and she's pushing onward, not looking at Winn.] Piotr. And for awhile it was great or at least as close to great as things ever got there. Then he was injured badly in battle. It was a mortal wound. There was nothing anyone could really do except... His power was transforming his flesh into techno organic metal and Erik could manipulate metal so he was able to put him back together as long as he never transformed back. He was different after that. Colder and harder and not just on the outside.
I still loved him. I tried to make things better and to be patient and just... Tried to ignore or hope it away. Then one day we were sent on a mission to rescue his sister who we thought had been dead. We got her and lost all of our students in the process. I wanted to go back for them. [She pauses a moment because talking about her students still hurts. She still feels like she failed them.]
Then in the final battle he found out that his sister wasn't alive in the other timeline we were trying to create. [She knows these pieces can't all be making sense to him. It's such a big story and she feels like she's already rambling too much, avoiding the final chapter while also trying to make it make sense when she gets there.]
He completely lost it. He charged at the other X-Men setting things up. I stood in front of him. Because he needed to stop and I knew he could never hurt me. That's why...[Voice falling much lower.] I didn't phase when he trampled me.
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Date: 2016-04-20 08:55 pm (UTC)I don't really know how to start... [Maybe not by blurting out the headline this time though. She curls in just a little bit closer and shuts her eyes.] After I watched my parents get murdered I, um, I always felt like it was just a matter of time for me. I mean, we're all mortal, but I never expected to get old or suffer natural causes. Part of why I picked up smoking I guess. [Not that she's been doing it much at all with the fleet. She's all out of cigarettes and she wasn't sure about the kinds they sell here. And hasn't really been under enough stress to need to find out.]
So, I just...tried to live more? Faster? ...I got married when I was still really young to one of my teammates. [Yep, she just said that and she's pushing onward, not looking at Winn.] Piotr. And for awhile it was great or at least as close to great as things ever got there. Then he was injured badly in battle. It was a mortal wound. There was nothing anyone could really do except... His power was transforming his flesh into techno organic metal and Erik could manipulate metal so he was able to put him back together as long as he never transformed back. He was different after that. Colder and harder and not just on the outside.
I still loved him. I tried to make things better and to be patient and just... Tried to ignore or hope it away. Then one day we were sent on a mission to rescue his sister who we thought had been dead. We got her and lost all of our students in the process. I wanted to go back for them. [She pauses a moment because talking about her students still hurts. She still feels like she failed them.]
Then in the final battle he found out that his sister wasn't alive in the other timeline we were trying to create. [She knows these pieces can't all be making sense to him. It's such a big story and she feels like she's already rambling too much, avoiding the final chapter while also trying to make it make sense when she gets there.]
He completely lost it. He charged at the other X-Men setting things up. I stood in front of him. Because he needed to stop and I knew he could never hurt me. That's why...[Voice falling much lower.] I didn't phase when he trampled me.