Probably because you're looking at yourself differently. You've grown here, and that might include such things as your preferences. There's nothing wrong with that Winn and there's nothing wrong with you.

_{[ He leaned back, taking another sip. He placed the glass down, rolling it back and forth slowly, making the liquid climb the sides. ]}

But maybe I'm not the only person you should talk to about this, if it's really causing you this much worry.