I shouldn't have done it. [But she's not sure she's better than this. In a lot of ways she's better now than she's ever been or at least ever been since she became the X-Men's shadow assassin. She's trying to adjust to living in a kinder, gentler world and she's doing better but there are set backs.]
But you can't have me on that pedestal. [Not judging. Pleading.] I'll fall. [Eyes tearing up again as her voice cracks. She doesn't want to lose him. She doesn't want him to look at her like a monster. But she wants him to see her for who she is. She's not like Kara.] I told you I've done things. I'm trying. I want to be better for you. For me.
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I shouldn't have done it. [But she's not sure she's better than this. In a lot of ways she's better now than she's ever been or at least ever been since she became the X-Men's shadow assassin. She's trying to adjust to living in a kinder, gentler world and she's doing better but there are set backs.]
But you can't have me on that pedestal. [Not judging. Pleading.] I'll fall. [Eyes tearing up again as her voice cracks. She doesn't want to lose him. She doesn't want him to look at her like a monster. But she wants him to see her for who she is. She's not like Kara.] I told you I've done things. I'm trying. I want to be better for you. For me.