[ no one's taken this sort of care of him since before...before his dad lost his mind, before he's had this fear, before his little perfect life was shattered. he's always been jealous of people who had siblings; especially of kara and alex. and now, for the first time in his life, he feels like he might be one of the lucky ones too. the way kirk worries about him, holds him protectively...it feels like what he imagined a big brother would, and it's almost too emotional to deal with.
and maybe he's right. this has been eating away at him for most of his life. from the time it became clear his father was the one behind the bomb, until the time he left for college and finally broke free of the people who knew who he was - he was reminded of it almost daily. the son of a murderer is one of the worst kinds of marks of shame you can carry around orphans. he thought he'd put it all behind him, until the man broke out of jail and just like that - he was 11 years old again.
maybe what's making him crazy isn't his father's deeds, it's the fact that he's never been able to talk about them. ]
A while, yeah. Since I was 11.
[ he huffs a choked up laugh in reply to kirk's. ]
You don't quit, do you?
[ said fondly. please never quit on him, he hasn't felt this safe and taken care of in so long. ]
action;
and maybe he's right. this has been eating away at him for most of his life. from the time it became clear his father was the one behind the bomb, until the time he left for college and finally broke free of the people who knew who he was - he was reminded of it almost daily. the son of a murderer is one of the worst kinds of marks of shame you can carry around orphans. he thought he'd put it all behind him, until the man broke out of jail and just like that - he was 11 years old again.
maybe what's making him crazy isn't his father's deeds, it's the fact that he's never been able to talk about them. ]
A while, yeah. Since I was 11.
[ he huffs a choked up laugh in reply to kirk's. ]
You don't quit, do you?
[ said fondly. please never quit on him, he hasn't felt this safe and taken care of in so long. ]