he's a good friend. he's a good boyfriend. he knows this, logically. how many times did he make kara smile since he got here, times she wouldn't have had if he weren't here? he's not keeping count, but it's a fair amount. he makes kitty laugh. sascha likes him so much he can barely peel the guy off of him. cisco trusted him with his deepest fears. margaery trusts him with the truth - he thinks. but it never feels like enough because he has so much to make up for. all the ugly, bitter, angry parts of himself, all the parts tinted by the shadow of insanity that's always hanging over his head, he could never atone for them.
he swallows on the lump forming in his throat.
his dad was obsessed too. he was so obsessed with his work, he was willing to kill for it. willing to break up their family. to leave him. there's nothing in the multiverse winn wants to avoid more than turning into his dad.
he's so tired. so tired of this fear always hanging over his head.
pulling himself up, he takes kirk's communicator with him. ]
I'll hook you up with that app.
[ the soul crushing sadness is almost overwhelming. ]
action;
and lets it out.
he's a good friend. he's a good boyfriend. he knows this, logically. how many times did he make kara smile since he got here, times she wouldn't have had if he weren't here? he's not keeping count, but it's a fair amount. he makes kitty laugh. sascha likes him so much he can barely peel the guy off of him. cisco trusted him with his deepest fears. margaery trusts him with the truth - he thinks. but it never feels like enough because he has so much to make up for. all the ugly, bitter, angry parts of himself, all the parts tinted by the shadow of insanity that's always hanging over his head, he could never atone for them.
he swallows on the lump forming in his throat.
his dad was obsessed too. he was so obsessed with his work, he was willing to kill for it. willing to break up their family. to leave him. there's nothing in the multiverse winn wants to avoid more than turning into his dad.
he's so tired. so tired of this fear always hanging over his head.
pulling himself up, he takes kirk's communicator with him. ]
I'll hook you up with that app.
[ the soul crushing sadness is almost overwhelming. ]