[ jim reminds him so much of kara right now, that for a second he's not sure if he isn't just -- talking to kara and hallucinating jim. this is my burden, he told her once. which means it's mine too, she replied without a second's hesitation. finding a friend like that once - his life taught him was incredibly unlikely. and yet here he is, sitting in front of another. and just like that time with kara, he's not sure what to do with it, how to respond to it. his base instinct wants to reject it, scared of what'll happen if he allowed himself to be a burden for even a second. kara's known him for two years which he spent trying to do everything he could for her, and still he worried he wouldn't be worth sticking it out for if he opened up. jim's known him a couple of months, and he suspects he's mostly just given him headaches with his projects. if he troubled him directly like that, why shouldn't jim leave him, like so many people in his life have?
he grumbles in frustration, because how can he say any of it? charles told him to find someone to talk to and he promised he'd try. jim's giving him a chance right here - and he can't seem to take it. ]
So is that what all the running is about, trying to knock me out? [ he knows kitty wants him to open up, his friends do too. but a lifetime of learning to repress because no one cares about the murderer's son's feelings are hard to shake off.
he thought he's come so far, but at the end of the day...he's still a coward. ]
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he grumbles in frustration, because how can he say any of it? charles told him to find someone to talk to and he promised he'd try. jim's giving him a chance right here - and he can't seem to take it. ]
So is that what all the running is about, trying to knock me out? [ he knows kitty wants him to open up, his friends do too. but a lifetime of learning to repress because no one cares about the murderer's son's feelings are hard to shake off.
he thought he's come so far, but at the end of the day...he's still a coward. ]